On the Eve: Chapter 27

Chapter 27

Bersenyev's words turned out only partly true; the danger was over,
but Insarov gained strength slowly, and the doctor talked of a
complete undermining of the whole system. The patient left his bed for
all that, and began to walk about the room; Bersenyev went home to
his own lodging, but he came every day to his still feeble friend;
and every day as before he informed Elena of the state of his health.
Insarov did not dare to write to her, and only indirectly in his
conversations with Bersenyev referred to her; but Bersenyev, with
assumed carelessness, told him about his visits to the Stahovs,
trying, however, to give him to understand that Elena had been deeply
distressed, and that now she was calmer. Elena too did not write to
Insarov; she had a plan in her head.

One day Bersenyev had just informed her with a cheerful face that the
doctor had already allowed Insarov to eat a cutlet, and that he
would probably soon go out; she seemed absorbed, dropped her eyes.

'Guess, what I want to say to you,' she said. Bersenyev was confused.
He understood her.

'I suppose,' he answered, looking away, 'you want to say that you wish
to see him.'

Elena crimsoned, and scarcely audibly, she breathed, 'Yes.'

'Well, what then? That, I imagine, you can easily do.'--'Ugh!' he
thought, 'what a loath-some feeling there is in my heart!'

'You mean that I have already before . . .' said Elena. 'But I am
afraid--now he is, you say, seldom alone.'

'That's not difficult to get over,' replied Bersenyev, still not
looking at her. 'I, of course, cannot prepare him; but give me a
note. Who can hinder your writing to him as a good friend, in whom you
take an interest? There's no harm in that. Appoint--I mean, write to
him when you will come.

'I am ashamed,' whispered Elena.

'Give me the note, I will take it.'

'There's no need of that, but I wanted to ask you--don't be angry with
me, Andrei Petrovitch--don't go to him to-morrow!'

Bersenyev bit his lip.

'Ah! yes, I understand; very well, very well,' and, adding two or
three words more, he quickly took leave.

'So much the better, so much the better,' he thought, as he hurried
home. 'I have learnt nothing new, but so much the better. What
possessed me to go hanging on to the edge of another man's happiness?
I regret nothing; I have done what my conscience told me; but now it
is over. Let them be! My father was right when he used to say to me:
"You and I, my dear boy, are not Sybarites, we are not aristocrats,
we're not the spoilt darlings of fortune and nature, we are not even
martyrs--we are workmen and nothing more. Put on your leather apron,
workman, and take your place at your workman's bench, in your dark
workshop, and let the sun shine on other men! Even our dull life has
its own pride, its own happiness!"'

The next morning Insarov got a brief note by the post. 'Expect me,'
Elena wrote to him, 'and give orders for no one to see you. A. P. will
not come.'

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