Dawn: Chapter 28
Chapter 28
With what degree of soundness our pair of lovers slumbered on that
memorable Saturday night, let those who have been so fortunate or
unfortunate as to have been placed in analogous circumstances, form
their own opinion.
It is, however, certain that Arthur gazed upon the moon and sundry of
the larger planets for some hours, until they unkindly set, and left
him, for his candle had burnt out, to find his way to bed in the dark.
With his reflections we will not trouble ourselves; or, rather, we
will not intrude upon their privacy. But there was another person in
the house who sat at an open window and looked upon the heavens--
Angela to wit. Let us avail ourselves of our rightful privilege, and
look into her thoughts.
Arthur's love had come upon her as a surprise, but it had found a
perfect home. All the days and hours that she had spent in his
company, had, unknown to herself, been mysteriously employed in
preparing a habitation to receive it. We all know the beautiful Bible
story of the Creation, how first there was an empty void, and the
Spirit brooding on the waters, then light, and then life, and last,
man coming to turn all things to his uses. Surely that story, which is
the type and symbol of many things, is of none more so than of the
growth and birth of a perfected love in the human heart.
The soil is made ready in the dead winter, and receives the seed into
its bosom. Then comes the spring, and it is clothed with verdure.
Space is void till the sun shoots its sudden rays athwart it, and
makes it splendid; the heart is cold and unwitting of its ends, till
the spirit broods upon it, as upon the waters, and it grows quick with
the purposes of life. And then what a change is there! What has the
flower in common with the seed from whence it sprang, or the noonday
sky with the darkness before the dawn?
Thinking in her chamber, with the night air playing on her hot brow,
and her hand pressed upon her heart, as though to still the tumult of
its joy, Angela grew vaguely conscious of these things.
"Was she the same in heart and mind that she had been a month ago? No,
a thousand times, no. Then what was this mysterious change that seemed
to shake her inmost life to its foundations? What angel had troubled
the waters into which she had so newly plunged? And whence came the
healing virtue that she found in them, bringing rest after the vague
trouble of the last two weeks, with sight to see the only good--her
love, with speed to follow, and strength to hold? Oh, happy, happy
world! oh, merciful Creator, who gave her to drink of such a living
spring! oh, Arthur, beloved Arthur!"
On Sunday mornings it was Pigott's habit to relax the Draconian
severity of her laws in the matter of breakfast, which, generally
speaking, was not till about half-past eight o'clock. At that hour
precisely, on the Sabbath in question, she appeared as usual--no, not
as usual, for, it being Sunday, she had on her stiff, black gown--and,
with all due solemnity, made the tea.
A few minutes elapsed, and Angela entered, dressed in white, and very
lovely in her simple, tight-fitting robe, but a trifle pale, and with
a shy look upon her face.
She greeted her nurse with a kiss.
"Why, what is the matter with you, dearie?" ejaculated Pigott, whose
watchful eye detected a change she could not define; "you look
different somehow."
"Hush! I will tell you by-and-by."
At that moment Arthur's quick step was heard advancing down the
passage, together with a pattering noise that announced the presence
of Aleck. And, as they came, Angela, poor Angela, grew red and redder,
and yet more painfully red, till Pigott, watching her face, was
enabled to form a shrewd guess as to what was the cause of her
unaccustomed looks.
On came the steps, and open flew the door, more and more ready to sink
into the earth looked Angela, and so interested grew nurse Pigott,
that she actually poured some hot tea on to her dress, a thing she
could never remember having done before.
The first to enter was Aleck, who, following his custom, sprang upon
Angela and licked her hand, and behind Aleck, looking somewhat
confused, but handsome and happy--for his was one of those faces that
become handsome when their owners are happy--came Aleck's master. And
then there ensued an infinitesimal but most awkward pause.
On such occasions as the present, namely, the first meeting after an
engagement, there is always--especially when it occurs in the presence
of a third person--a very considerable difficulty in the minds of the
parties to know what demeanour they are to adopt towards one another.
Are they to treat the little affair of the previous evening as a kind
of confidential communication, not to be alluded to except in private
conversation, and to drop into the Mr. and Miss of yesterday? That
would certainly be the easiest, but then it would also be a decided
act of mutual retreat. Or are they to rush into each other's arms as
becomes betrothed lovers? This process is so new that they feel that
it still requires private rehearsal. And, meanwhile, time presses, and
everybody is beginning to stare, and something _must_ be done.
These were very much the feelings of Arthur and Angela. He hesitated
before her, confused, and she kept her head down over the dog. But
presently Aleck, getting bored, moved on, and, as it would have been
inane to continue to stare at the floor, she had to raise herself as
slowly as she might. Soon their eyes arrived in the same plane, and
whether a mutual glance of intelligence was exchanged, or whether
their power of attraction overcame his power of resistance, it is not
easy to determine, but certain it is that, following a primary natural
law, Arthur gravitated towards her, and kissed her on the face.
"My!" exclaimed Pigott, and the milk-jug rolled unheeded on the floor.
"Hum! I suppose I had better explain," began he.
"I think you have spilt the milk," added she.
"That we have become engaged and are----"
"All to pieces, I declare," broke in Angela, with her head somewhere
near the carpet.
And then they both laughed.
"Well, I never, no, not in all my born days! Sir and Miss Angela, all
I have got to say about this extraordinary proceeding"--they glanced
at each other in alarm--"is that I am very glad to hear on it, and I
hope and pray how as you may be happy, and, if you treat my Angela
right, you'll be just the happiest and luckiest man in the three
kingdoms, including Ireland the Royal Family, and, if you treat her
wrong, worse will come to you; and her poor mother's last words, as I
heard with my own ears, will come true to you, and serve you right--
and there's all the milk upon the floor. And God bless you both, my
dears, is the prayer of an old woman."
And here the worthy soul broke down, and began to cry, nor were
Angela's eyes free from tears.
After this little episode, breakfast proceeded in something like the
usual way. Church was at 10.30, and, a while before the hour, Arthur
and Angela strolled down to the spot that had already become as holy
ground to them, and looked into each other's eyes, and said again the
same sweet words. Then they went on, and mingling with the little
congregation--that did not number more than thirty souls--they passed
into the cool quiet of the church.
"Lawks!" said a woman, as they went by, "ain't she just a beauty. What
a pretty wedding they'd make!"
Arthur overheard it, and noted the woman, and afterwards found a
pretext to give her five shillings, because he said it was a lucky
omen.
On the communion-table of the pretty little church there was spread
the "fair white cloth" of the rubric. It was the day for the monthly
celebration of the Sacrament, that met the religious requirements of
the village.
"Will you stay to the Sacrament with me?" whispered Angela to her
lover, in the interval between their seating themselves and the entry
of the clergyman, Mr. Fraser's _locum tenens_.
Arthur nodded assent.
And so, when the time came, those two went up together to the altar-
rails, and, kneeling side by side, ate of the bread and drank of the
cup, and, rising, departed thence with a new link between them. For,
be sure, part of the prayers which they offered up at that high moment
were in humble petition to the Almighty to set His solemn seal and
blessing on their love. Indeed, so far as Angela was concerned, there
were few acts of her simple life that she did not consecrate by
prayer, how much more, then, was she bent on bringing this, the
greatest of all her acts, before her Maker's throne.
Strange indeed, and full of a holy promise, is the yearning with which
we turn to Heaven to seek sanctification of our deeds, feeling our
weakness and craving strength from the source of strength; a yearning
of which the church, with that subtle knowledge of human nature, which
is one of the mainsprings of its power, has not been slow to avail
itself. And this need is more especially felt in matters connected
with the noblest of all passions, perhaps because all true love and
all true religion come from a common home.
Thus pledged to one another with a new and awful pledge, and knit
together in the bonds of an universal love, embracing their poor
affection as the wide skies embrace the earth, they rose, and went
their ways, purer to worship, and stronger to endure.
That afternoon, Arthur had a conversation with his betrothed that,
partaking of a business nature in the beginning, ended rather oddly.
"I must speak to your father when he comes back to-morrow, dear," he
began.
"My father! Oh yes, I had forgotten about that;" and she looked a
little anxious.
"Fortunately, I am fairly well off, so I see no cause why he should
object."
"Well, I think that he will be rather glad to get rid of Pigott and
myself. You know that he is not very fond of me."
"That is strange want of taste on his part."
"Oh, I don't know. Everybody does not see me with your eyes, Arthur."
"Because they have not the chance. All the world would love you, if it
knew you. But, seriously, I think that he can hardly object, or he
would not have allowed us to be thrown so much together; for, in nine
cases out of ten, that sort of thing has only one result."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that to import a young fellow into the house, and throw him
solely into a daughter's company, is very apt to bring about--well,
what has been brought about."
"Then you mean that you think that I should have fallen in love with
any gentleman who had come here?"
Arthur, not seeing the slight flash of indignation in her eyes,
replied,
"Well, you know, there is always a risk, but I should imagine that it
would very much depend upon the gentleman."
"Arthur"--with a little stamp--"I am ashamed of you. How can you think
such things of me? You must have a very poor opinion of me."
"My dear, why should I suppose myself superior to anybody else, that
you should only fall in love with me? You set too high a value on me."
"And you set too low a value on me; you do not understand me. You are
my fate, my other self; how would it have been possible for me to love
any one but you? I feel as though I had been travelling to meet you
since the beginning of the world, to stand by your side till it
crumbles away, yes, for eternity itself. Oh! Arthur, do not laugh at
what I say. I am, indeed, only a simple girl, but, as I told you last
night, there is something stirring in me now, my real life, my eternal
part, something that you have awakened, and with which you have to
deal, something apart from the _me_ you see before you. As I speak, I
feel and know that when we are dead and gone, I shall love you still;
when more ages have passed than there are leaves upon that tree, I
shall love you still. Arthur, I am yours for ever, for the time that
is, and is to be."
She spoke with the grand freedom of one inspired, nay, he felt that
she was inspired, and the same feeling of awe that had come upon him
when he first saw her face, again took possession of him. Taking her
hand, he kissed it.
"Dearest," he said, "dearest Angela, who am I that you should love me
so? What have I done that such a treasure should be given to me? I
hope that it may be as you say!"
"It will be as I say," she answered, as she bent to kiss him. And they
went on in silence.