Doctor Pascal: Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Then came a period of idyllic happiness. Clotilde was the spring, the
tardy rejuvenation that came to Pascal in his declining years. She
came, bringing to him, with her love, sunshine and flowers. Their
rapture lifted them above the earth; and all this youth she bestowed
on him after his thirty years of toil, when he was already weary and
worn probing the frightful wounds of humanity. He revived in the light
of her great shining eyes, in the fragrance of her pure breath. He had
faith again in life, in health, in strength, in the eternal renewal of
nature.

On the morning after her avowal it was ten o'clock before Clotilde
left her room. In the middle of the workroom she suddenly came upon
Martine and, in her radiant happiness, with a burst of joy that
carried everything before it, she rushed toward her, crying:

"Martine, I am not going away! Master and I--we love each other."

The old servant staggered under the blow. Her poor worn face, nunlike
under its white cap and with its look of renunciation, grew white in
the keenness of her anguish. Without a word, she turned and fled for
refuge to her kitchen, where, leaning her elbows on her chopping-
table, and burying her face in her clasped hands, she burst into a
passion of sobs.

Clotilde, grieved and uneasy, followed her. And she tried to
comprehend and to console her.

"Come, come, how foolish you are! What possesses you? Master and I
will love you all the same; we will always keep you with us. You are
not going to be unhappy because we love each other. On the contrary,
the house is going to be gay now from morning till night."

But Martine only sobbed all the more desperately.

"Answer me, at least. Tell me why you are angry and why you cry. Does
it not please you then to know that master is so happy, so happy! See,
I will call master and he will make you answer."

At this threat the old servant suddenly rose and rushed into her own
room, which opened out of the kitchen, slamming the door behind her.
In vain the young girl called and knocked until she was tired; she
could obtain no answer. At last Pascal, attracted by the noise, came
downstairs, saying:

"Why, what is the matter?"

"Oh, it is that obstinate Martine! Only fancy, she began to cry when
she knew that we loved each other. And she has barricaded herself in
there, and she will not stir."

She did not stir, in fact. Pascal, in his turn, called and knocked. He
scolded; he entreated. Then, one after the other, they began all over
again. Still there was no answer. A deathlike silence reigned in the
little room. And he pictured it to himself, this little room,
religiously clean, with its walnut bureau, and its monastic bed
furnished with white hangings. No doubt the servant had thrown herself
across this bed, in which she had slept alone all her woman's life,
and was burying her face in the bolster to stifle her sobs.

"Ah, so much the worse for her?" said Clotilde at last, in the egotism
of her joy, "let her sulk!"

Then throwing her arms around Pascal, and raising to his her charming
face, still glowing with the ardor of self-surrender, she said:

"Master, I will be your servant to-day."

He kissed her on the eyes with grateful emotion; and she at once set
about preparing the breakfast, turning the kitchen upside down. She
had put on an enormous white apron, and she looked charming, with her
sleeves rolled up, showing her delicate arms, as if for some great
undertaking. There chanced to be some cutlets in the kitchen which she
cooked to a turn. She added some scrambled eggs, and she even
succeeded in frying some potatoes. And they had a delicious breakfast,
twenty times interrupted by her getting up in her eager zeal, to run
for the bread, the water, a forgotten fork. If he had allowed her, she
would have waited upon him on her knees. Ah! to be alone, to be only
they two in this large friendly house, and to be free to laugh and to
love each other in peace.

They spent the whole afternoon in sweeping and putting things in
order. He insisted upon helping her. It was a play; they amused
themselves like two merry children. From time to time, however, they
went back to knock at Martine's door to remonstrate with her. Come,
this was foolish, she was not going to let herself starve! Was there
ever seen such a mule, when no one had said or done anything to her!
But only the echo of their knocks came back mournfully from the silent
room. Not the slightest sound, not a breath responded. Night fell, and
they were obliged to make the dinner also, which they ate, sitting
beside each other, from the same plate. Before going to bed, they made
a last attempt, threatening to break open the door, but their ears,
glued to the wood, could not catch the slightest sound. And on the
following day, when they went downstairs and found the door still
hermetically closed, they began to be seriously uneasy. For twenty-
four hours the servant had given no sign of life.

Then, on returning to the kitchen after a moment's absence, Clotilde
and Pascal were stupefied to see Martine sitting at her table, picking
some sorrel for the breakfast. She had silently resumed her place as
servant.

"But what was the matter with you?" cried Clotilde. "Will you speak
now?"

She lifted up her sad face, stained by tears. It was very calm,
however, and it expressed now only the resigned melancholy of old age.
She looked at the young girl with an air of infinite reproach; then
she bent her head again without speaking.

"Are you angry with us, then?"

And as she still remained silent, Pascal interposed:

"Are you angry with us, my good Martine?"

Then the old servant looked up at him with her former look of
adoration, as if she loved him sufficiently to endure all and to
remain in spite of all. At last she spoke.

"No, I am angry with no one. The master is free. It is all right, if
he is satisfied."

A new life began from this time. Clotilde, who in spite of her twenty-
five years had still remained childlike, now, under the influence of
love, suddenly bloomed into exquisite womanhood. Since her heart had
awakened, the serious and intelligent boy that she had looked like,
with her round head covered with its short curls, had given place to
an adorable woman, altogether womanly, submissive and tender, loving
to be loved. Her great charm, notwithstanding her learning picked up
at random from her reading and her work, was her virginal _naivete_,
as if her unconscious awaiting of love had made her reserve the gift
of her whole being to be utterly absorbed in the man whom she should
love. No doubt she had given her love as much through gratitude and
admiration as through tenderness; happy to make him happy;
experiencing a profound joy in being no longer only a little girl to
be petted, but something of his very own which he adored, a precious
possession, a thing of grace and joy, which he worshiped on bended
knees. She still had the religious submissiveness of the former
devotee, in the hands of a master mature and strong, from whom she
derived consolation and support, retaining, above and beyond
affection, the sacred awe of the believer in the spiritual which she
still was. But more than all, this woman, so intoxicated with love,
was a delightful personification of health and gaiety; eating with a
hearty appetite; having something of the valor of her grandfather the
soldier; filling the house with her swift and graceful movements, with
the bloom of her satin skin, the slender grace of her neck, of all her
young form, divinely fresh.

And Pascal, too, had grown handsome again under the influence of love,
with the serene beauty of a man who had retained his vigor,
notwithstanding his white hairs. His countenance had no longer the
sorrowful expression which it had worn during the months of grief and
suffering through which he had lately passed; his eyes, youthful
still, had recovered their brightness, his features their smiling
grace; while his white hair and beard grew thicker, in a leonine
abundance which lent him a youthful air. He had kept himself, in his
solitary life as a passionate worker, so free from vice and
dissipation that he found now within him a reserve of life and vigor
eager to expend itself at last. There awoke within him new energy, a
youthful impetuosity that broke forth in gestures and exclamations, in
a continual need of expansion, of living. Everything wore a new and
enchanting aspect to him; the smallest glimpse of sky moved him to
wonder; the perfume of a simple flower threw him into an ecstasy; an
everyday expression of affection, worn by use, touched him to tears,
as if it had sprung fresh from the heart and had not been hackneyed by
millions of lips. Clotilde's "I love you," was an infinite caress,
whose celestial sweetness no human being had ever before known. And
with health and beauty he recovered also his gaiety, that tranquil
gaiety which had formerly been inspired by his love of life, and which
now threw sunshine over his love, over everything that made life worth
living.

They two, blooming youth and vigorous maturity, so healthy, so gay, so
happy, made a radiant couple. For a whole month they remained in
seclusion, not once leaving La Souleiade. The place where both now
liked to be was the spacious workroom, so intimately associated with
their habits and their past affection. They would spend whole days
there, scarcely working at all, however. The large carved oak press
remained with closed doors; so, too, did the bookcases. Books and
papers lay undisturbed upon the tables. Like a young married couple
they were absorbed in their one passion, oblivious of their former
occupations, oblivious of life. The hours seemed all too short to
enjoy the charm of being together, often seated in the same large
antique easy-chair, happy in the depths of this solitude in which they
secluded themselves, in the tranquillity of this lofty room, in this
domain which was altogether theirs, without luxury and without order,
full of familiar objects, brightened from morning till night by the
returning gaiety of the April sunshine. When, seized with remorse, he
would talk about working, she would link her supple arms through his
and laughingly hold him prisoner, so that he should not make himself
ill again with overwork. And downstairs, they loved, too, the
dining-room, so gay with its light panels relieved by blue bands, its
antique mahogany furniture, its large flower pastels, its brass
hanging lamp, always shining. They ate in it with a hearty appetite
and they left it, after each meal, only to go upstairs again to their
dear solitude.

Then when the house seemed too small, they had the garden, all La
Souleiade. Spring advanced with the advancing sun, and at the end of
April the roses were beginning to bloom. And what a joy was this
domain, walled around, where nothing from the outside world could
trouble them! Hours flew by unnoted, as they sat on the terrace facing
the vast horizon and the shady banks of the Viorne, and the slopes of
Sainte-Marthe, from the rocky bars of the Seille to the valley of
Plassans in the dusty distance. There was no shade on the terrace but
that of the two secular cypresses planted at its two extremities, like
two enormous green tapers, which could be seen three leagues away. At
times they descended the slope for the pleasure of ascending the giant
steps, and climbing the low walls of uncemented stones which supported
the plantations, to see if the stunted olive trees and the puny
almonds were budding. More often there were delightful walks under the
delicate needles of the pine wood, steeped in sunshine and exhaling a
strong odor of resin; endless walks along the wall of inclosure, from
behind which the only sound they could hear was, at rare intervals,
the grating noise of some cart jolting along the narrow road to Les
Fenouilleres; and they spent delightful hours in the old threshing

yard, where they could see the whole horizon, and where they loved to
stretch themselves, tenderly remembering their former tears, when,
loving each other unconsciously to themselves, they had quarreled
under the stars. But their favorite retreat, where they always ended
by losing themselves, was the quincunx of tall plane trees, whose
branches, now of a tender green, looked like lacework. Below, the
enormous box trees, the old borders of the French garden, of which now
scarcely a trace remained, formed a sort of labyrinth of which they
could never find the end. And the slender stream of the fountain, with
its eternal crystalline murmur, seemed to sing within their hearts.
They would sit hand in hand beside the mossy basin, while the twilight
fell around them, their forms gradually fading into the shadow of the
trees, while the water which they could no longer see, sang its
flutelike song.

Up to the middle of May Pascal and Clotilde secluded themselves in
this way, without even crossing the threshold of their retreat. One
morning he disappeared and returned an hour later, bringing her a pair
of diamond earrings which he had hurried out to buy, remembering this
was her birthday. She adored jewels, and the gift astonished and
delighted her. From this time not a week passed in which he did not go
out once or twice in this way to bring her back some present. The
slightest excuse was sufficient for him--a _fete_, a wish, a simple
pleasure. He brought her rings, bracelets, a necklace, a slender
diadem. He would take out the other jewels and please himself by
putting them all upon her in the midst of their laughter. She was like
an idol, seated on her chair, covered with gold,--a band of gold on
her hair, gold on her bare arms and on her bare throat, all shining
with gold and precious stones. Her woman's vanity was delightfully
gratified by this. She allowed herself to be adored thus, to be adored
on bended knees, like a divinity, knowing well that this was only an
exalted form of love. She began at last to scold a little, however; to
make prudent remonstrances; for, in truth, it was an absurdity to
bring her all these gifts which she must afterward shut up in a
drawer, without ever wearing them, as she went nowhere.

They were forgotten after the hour of joy and gratitude which they
gave her in their novelty was over. But he would not listen to her,
carried away by a veritable mania for giving; unable, from the moment
the idea of giving her an article took possession of him, to resist
the desire of buying it. It was a munificence of the heart; an
imperious desire to prove to her that he thought of her always; a
pride in seeing her the most magnificent, the happiest, the most
envied of women; a generosity more profound even, which impelled him
to despoil himself of everything, of his money, of his life. And then,
what a delight, when he saw he had given her a real pleasure, and she
threw herself on his neck, blushing, thanking him with kisses. After
the jewels, it was gowns, articles of dress, toilet articles. Her room
was littered, the drawers were filled to overflowing.

One morning she could not help getting angry. He had brought her
another ring.

"Why, I never wear them! And if I did, my fingers would be covered to
the tips. Be reasonable, I beg of you."

"Then I have not given you pleasure?" he said with confusion.

She threw her arms about his neck, and assured him with tears in her
eyes that she was very happy. He was so good to her! He was so
unwearied in his devotion to her! And when, later in the morning, he
ventured to speak of making some changes in her room, of covering the
walls with tapestry, of putting down a carpet, she again remonstrated.

"Oh! no, no! I beg of you. Do not touch my old room, so full of
memories, where I have grown up, where I told you I loved you. I
should no longer feel myself at home in it."

Downstairs, Martine's obstinate silence condemned still more strongly
these excessive and useless expenses. She had adopted a less familiar
attitude, as if, in the new situation, she had fallen from her role of
housekeeper and friend to her former station of servant. Toward
Clotilde, especially, she changed, treating her like a young lady,
like a mistress to whom she was less affectionate but more obedient

than formerly. Two or three times, however, she had appeared in the
morning with her face discolored and her eyes sunken with weeping,
answering evasively when questioned, saying that nothing was the
matter, that she had taken cold. And she never made any remark about
the gifts with which the drawers were filled. She did not even seem to
see them, arranging them without a word either of praise or dispraise.
But her whole nature rebelled against this extravagant generosity, of
which she could never have conceived the possibility. She protested in
her own fashion; exaggerating her economy and reducing still further
the expenses of the housekeeping, which she now conducted on so narrow
a scale that she retrenched even in the smallest expenses. For
instance, she took only two-thirds of the milk which she had been in
the habit of taking, and she served sweet dishes only on Sundays.
Pascal and Clotilde, without venturing to complain, laughed between
themselves at this parsimony, repeating the jests which had amused
them for ten years past, saying that after dressing the vegetables she
strained them in the colander, in order to save the butter for future
use.

But this quarter she insisted upon rendering an account. She was in
the habit of going every three months to Master Grandguillot, the
notary, to receive the fifteen hundred francs income, of which she
disposed afterward according to her judgment, entering the expenses in
a book which the doctor had years ago ceased to verify. She brought it
to him now and insisted upon his looking over it. He excused himself,
saying that it was all right.

"The thing is, monsieur," she said, "that this time I have been able
to put some money aside. Yes, three hundred francs. Here they are."

He looked at her in amazement. Generally she just made both ends meet.
By what miracle of stinginess had she been able to save such a sum?

"Ah! my poor Martine," he said at last, laughing, "that is the reason,
then, that we have been eating so many potatoes of late. You are a
pearl of economy, but indeed you must treat us a little better in the
future."

This discreet reproach wounded her so profoundly that she allowed
herself at last to say:

"Well, monsieur, when there is so much extravagance on the one hand,
it is well to be prudent on the other."

He understood the allusion, but instead of being angry, he was amused
by the lesson.

"Ah, ah! it is you who are examining my accounts! But you know very
well, Martine, that I, too, have my savings laid by."

He alluded to the money which he still received occasionally from his
patients, and which he threw into a drawer of his writing-desk. For
more than sixteen years past he had put into this drawer every year
about four thousand francs, which would have amounted to a little
fortune if he had not taken from it, from day to day, without counting

them, considerable sums for his experiments and his whims. All the
money for the presents came out of this drawer, which he now opened
continually. He thought that it would never be empty; he had been so
accustomed to take from it whatever he required that it had never
occurred to him to fear that he would ever come to the bottom of it.

"One may very well have a little enjoyment out of one's savings," he
said gayly. "Since it is you who go to the notary's, Martine, you are
not ignorant that I have my income apart."

Then she said, with the colorless voice of the miser who is haunted by
the dread of an impending disaster:

"And what would you do if you hadn't it?"

Pascal looked at her in astonishment, and contented himself with
answering with a shrug, for the possibility of such a misfortune had
never even entered his mind. He fancied that avarice was turning her
brain, and he laughed over the incident that evening with Clotilde.

In Plassans, too, the presents were the cause of endless gossip. The
rumor of what was going on at La Souleiade, this strange and sudden
passion, had spread, no one could tell how, by that force of expansion
which sustains curiosity, always on the alert in small towns. The
servant certainly had not spoken, but her air was perhaps sufficient;
words perhaps had dropped from her involuntarily; the lovers might
have been watched over the walls. And then came the buying of the
presents, confirming the reports and exaggerating them. When the
doctor, in the early morning, scoured the streets and visited the
jeweler's and the dressmaker's, eyes spied him from the windows, his
smallest purchases were watched, all the town knew in the evening that
he had given her a silk bonnet, a bracelet set with sapphires. And all
this was turned into a scandal. This uncle in love with his niece,
committing a young man's follies for her, adorning her like a holy
Virgin. The most extraordinary stories began to circulate, and people
pointed to La Souleiade as they passed by.

But old Mme. Rougon was, of all persons, the most bitterly indignant.
She had ceased going to her son's house when she learned that
Clotilde's marriage with Dr. Ramond had been broken off. They had made
sport of her. They did nothing to please her, and she wished to show
how deep her displeasure was. Then a full month after the rupture,
during which she had understood nothing of the pitying looks, the
discreet condolences, the vague smiles which met her everywhere, she
learned everything with a suddenness that stunned her. She, who, at
the time of Pascal's illness, in her mortification at the idea of
again becoming the talk of the town through that ugly story, had
raised such a storm! It was far worse this time; the height of
scandal, a love affair for people to regale themselves with. The
Rougon legend was again in peril; her unhappy son was decidedly doing
his best to find some way to destroy the family glory won with so much
difficulty. So that in her anger she, who had made herself the
guardian of this glory, resolving to purify the legend by every means
in her power, put on her hat one morning and hurried to La Souleiade
with the youthful vivacity of her eighty years.

Pascal, whom the rupture with his mother enchanted, was fortunately
not at home, having gone out an hour before to look for a silver
buckle which he had thought of for a belt. And Felicite fell upon
Clotilde as the latter was finishing her toilet, her arms bare, her
hair loose, looking as fresh and smiling as a rose.

The first shock was rude. The old lady unburdened her mind, grew
indignant, spoke of the scandal they were giving. Suddenly her anger
vanished. She looked at the young girl, and she thought her adorable.
In her heart she was not surprised at what was going on. She laughed
at it, all she desired was that it should end in a correct fashion, so
as to silence evil tongues. And she cried with a conciliating air:

"Get married then! Why do you not get married?"

Clotilde remained silent for a moment, surprised. She had not thought
of marriage. Then she smiled again.

"No doubt we will get married, grandmother. But later on, there is no
hurry."

Old Mme. Rougon went away, obliged to be satisfied with this vague
promise.

It was at this time that Pascal and Clotilde ceased to seclude
themselves. Not through any spirit of bravado, not because they wished
to answer ugly rumors by making a display of their happiness, but as a
natural amplification of their joy; their love had slowly acquired the
need of expansion and of space, at first beyond the house, then beyond
the garden, into the town, as far as the whole vast horizon. It filled
everything; it took in the whole world.

The doctor then tranquilly resumed his visits, and he took the young
girl with him. They walked together along the promenades, along the
streets, she on his arm, in a light gown, with flowers in her hat, he
buttoned up in his coat with his broad-brimmed hat. He was all white;
she all blond. They walked with their heads high, erect and smiling,
radiating such happiness that they seemed to walk in a halo. At first
the excitement was extraordinary. The shopkeepers came and stood at
their doors, the women leaned out of the windows, the passers-by
stopped to look after them. People whispered and laughed and pointed
to them. Then they were so handsome; he superb and triumphant, she so
youthful, so submissive, and so proud, that an involuntary indulgence
gradually gained on every one. People could not help defending them
and loving them, and they ended by smiling on them in a delightful
contagion of tenderness. A charm emanated from them which brought back
all hearts to them. The new town, with its _bourgeois_ population of
functionaries and townspeople who had grown wealthy, was the last
conquest. But the Quartier St. Marc, in spite of its austerity, showed
itself at once kind and discreetly tolerant when they walked along its
deserted grass-worn sidewalks, beside the antique houses, now closed
and silent, which exhaled the evaporated perfume of the loves of other
days. But it was the old quarter, more especially, that promptly
received them with cordiality, this quarter of which the common
people, instinctively touched, felt the grace of the legend, the
profound myth of the couple, the beautiful young girl supporting the
royal and rejuvenated master. The doctor was adored here for his
goodness, and his companion quickly became popular, and was greeted
with tokens of admiration and approval as soon as she appeared. They,
meantime, if they had seemed ignorant of the former hostility, now
divined easily the forgiveness and the indulgent tenderness which
surrounded them, and this made them more beautiful; their happiness
charmed the entire town.

One afternoon, as Pascal and Clotilde turned the corner of the Rue de
la Banne, they perceived Dr. Ramond on the opposite side of the
street. It had chanced that they had learned the day before that he
had asked and had obtained the hand of Mlle. Leveque, the advocate's
daughter. It was certainly the most sensible course he could have
taken, for his business interests made it advisable that he should
marry, and the young girl, who was very pretty and very rich, loved
him. He, too, would certainly love her in time. Therefore Clotilde
joyfully smiled her congratulations to him as a sincere friend. Pascal
saluted him with an affectionate gesture. For a moment Ramond, a
little moved by the meeting, stood perplexed. His first impulse seemed
to have been to cross over to them. But a feeling of delicacy must
have prevented him, the thought that it would be brutal to interrupt
their dream, to break in upon this solitude _a deux_, in which they
moved, even amid the elbowings of the street. And he contented himself
with a friendly salutation, a smile in which he forgave them their
happiness. This was very pleasant for all three.

At this time Clotilde amused herself for several days by painting a
large pastel representing the tender scene of old King David and
Abishag, the young Shunammite. It was a dream picture, one of those
fantastic compositions into which her other self, her romantic self,
put her love of the mysterious. Against a background of flowers thrown
on the canvas, flowers that looked like a shower of stars, of barbaric
richness, the old king stood facing the spectator, his hand resting on
the bare shoulder of Abishag. He was attired sumptuously in a robe
heavy with precious stones, that fell in straight folds, and he wore
the royal fillet on his snowy locks. But she was more sumptuous still,
with only the lilylike satin of her skin, her tall, slender figure,
her round, slender throat, her supple arms, divinely graceful. He
reigned over, he leaned, as a powerful and beloved master, on this
subject, chosen from among all others, so proud of having been chosen,
so rejoiced to give to her king the rejuvenating gift of her youth.
All her pure and triumphant beauty expressed the serenity of her
submission, the tranquillity with which she gave herself, before the
assembled people, in the full light of day. And he was very great and
she was very fair, and there radiated from both a starry radiance.

Up to the last moment Clotilde had left the faces of the two figures
vaguely outlined in a sort of mist. Pascal, standing behind her,
jested with her to hide his emotion, for he fancied he divined her
intention. And it was as he thought; she finished the faces with a few
strokes of the crayon--old King David was he, and she was Abishag, the
Shunammite. But they were enveloped in a dreamlike brightness, it was
themselves deified; the one with hair all white, the other with hair
all blond, covering them like an imperial mantle, with features
lengthened by ecstasy, exalted to the bliss of angels, with the glance
and the smile of immortal youth.

"Ah, dear!" he cried, "you have made us too beautiful; you have
wandered off again to dreamland--yes, as in the days, do you remember,
when I used to scold you for putting there all the fantastic flowers
of the Unknown?"

And he pointed to the walls, on which bloomed the fantastic _parterre_
of the old pastels, flowers not of the earth, grown in the soil of
paradise.

But she protested gayly.

"Too beautiful? We could not be too beautiful! I assure you it is thus
that I picture us to myself, thus that I see us; and thus it is that
we are. There! see if it is not the pure reality."

She took the old fifteenth century Bible which was beside her, and
showed him the simple wood engraving.

"You see it is exactly the same."

He smiled gently at this tranquil and extraordinary affirmation.

"Oh, you laugh, you look only at the details of the picture. It is the
spirit which it is necessary to penetrate. And look at the other
engravings, it is the same theme in all--Abraham and Hagar, Ruth and
Boaz. And you see they are all handsome and happy."

Then they ceased to laugh, leaning over the old Bible whose pages she
turned with her white fingers, he standing behind her, his white beard
mingling with her blond, youthful tresses.

Suddenly he whispered to her softly:

"But you, so young, do you never regret that you have chosen me--me,
who am so old, as old as the world?"

She gave a start of surprise, and turning round looked at him.

"You old! No, you are young, younger than I!"

And she laughed so joyously that he, too, could not help smiling. But
he insisted a little tremulously:

"You do not answer me. Do you not sometimes desire a younger lover,
you who are so youthful?"

She put up her lips and kissed him, saying in a low voice:

"I have but one desire, to be loved--loved as you love me, above and
beyond everything."

The day on which Martine saw the pastel nailed to the wall, she looked
at it a moment in silence, then she made the sign of the cross, but
whether it was because she had seen God or the devil, no one could
say. A few days before Easter she had asked Clotilde if she would not
accompany her to church, and the latter having made a sign in the
negative, she departed for an instant from the deferential silence
which she now habitually maintained. Of all the new things which
astonished her in the house, what most astonished her was the sudden
irreligiousness of her young mistress. So she allowed herself to
resume her former tone of remonstrance, and to scold her as she used
to do when she was a little girl and refused to say her prayers. "Had
she no longer the fear of the Lord before her, then? Did she no longer
tremble at the idea of going to hell, to burn there forever?"

Clotilde could not suppress a smile.

"Oh, hell! you know that it has never troubled me a great deal. But
you are mistaken if you think I am no longer religious. If I have left
off going to church it is because I perform my devotions elsewhere,
that is all."

Martine looked at her, open-mouthed, not comprehending her. It was all
over; mademoiselle was indeed lost. And she never again asked her to
accompany her to St. Saturnin. But her own devotion increased until it
at last became a mania. She was no longer to be met, as before, with
the eternal stocking in her hand which she knitted even when walking,
when not occupied in her household duties. Whenever she had a moment
to spare, she ran to church and remained there, repeating endless
prayers. One day when old Mme. Rougon, always on the alert, found her
behind a pillar, an hour after she had seen her there before, Martine
excused herself, blushing like a servant who had been caught idling,
saying:

"I was praying for monsieur."

Meanwhile Pascal and Clotilde enlarged still more their domain, taking
longer and longer walks every day, extending them now outside the town
into the open country. One afternoon, as they were going to La
Seguiranne, they were deeply moved, passing by the melancholy fields
where the enchanted gardens of Le Paradou had formerly extended. The
vision of Albine rose before them. Pascal saw her again blooming like
the spring, in the rejuvenation which this living flower had brought
him too, feeling the pressure of this pure arm against his heart.
Never could he have believed, he who had already thought himself very
old when he used to enter this garden to give a smile to the little
fairy within, that she would have been dead for years when life, the
good mother, should bestow upon him the gift of so fresh a spring,
sweetening his declining years. And Clotilde, having felt the vision
rise before them, lifted up her face to his in a renewed longing for
tenderness. She was Albine, the eternal lover. He kissed her on the
lips, and though no word had been uttered, the level fields sown with
corn and oats, where Le Paradou had once rolled its billows of
luxuriant verdure, thrilled in sympathy.

Pascal and Clotilde were now walking along the dusty road, through the
bare and arid country. They loved this sun-scorched land, these fields
thinly planted with puny almond trees and dwarf olives, these
stretches of bare hills dotted with country houses, that showed on
them like pale patches accentuated by the dark bars of the secular
cypresses. It was like an antique landscape, one of those classic
landscapes represented in the paintings of the old schools, with harsh
coloring and well balanced and majestic lines. All the ardent sunshine
of successive summers that had parched this land flowed through their
veins, and lent them a new beauty and animation, as they walked under
the sky forever blue, glowing with the clear flame of eternal love.
She, protected from the sun by her straw hat, bloomed and luxuriated
in this bath of light like a tropical flower, while he, in his renewed
youth, felt the burning sap of the soil ascend into his veins in a
flood of virile joy.

This walk to La Seguiranne had been an idea of the doctor's, who had
learned through Aunt Dieudonne of the approaching marriage of Sophie
to a young miller of the neighborhood; and he desired to see if every
one was well and happy in this retired corner. All at once they were
refreshed by a delightful coolness as they entered the avenue of tall
green oaks. On either side the springs, the mothers of these giant
shade trees, flowed on in their eternal course. And when they reached
the house of the shrew they came, as chance would have it, upon the
two lovers, Sophie and her miller, kissing each other beside the well;
for the girl's aunt had just gone down to the lavatory behind the
willows of the Viorne. Confused, the couple stood in blushing silence.
But the doctor and his companion laughed indulgently, and the lovers,
reassured, told them that the marriage was set for St. John's Day,
which was a long way off, to be sure, but which would come all the
same. Sophie, saved from the hereditary malady, had improved in health
and beauty, and was growing as strong as one of the trees that stood
with their feet in the moist grass beside the springs, and their heads
bare to the sunshine. Ah, the vast, glowing sky, what life it breathed
into all created things! She had but one grief, and tears came to her
eyes when she spoke of her brother Valentin, who perhaps would not
live through the week. She had had news of him the day before; he was
past hope. And the doctor was obliged to prevaricate a little to
console her, for he himself expected hourly the inevitable
termination. When he and his companion left La Seguiranne they
returned slowly to Plassans, touched by this happy, healthy love
saddened by the chill of death.

In the old quarter a woman whom Pascal was attending informed him that
Valentin had just died. Two of the neighbors were obliged to take away
La Guiraude, who, half-crazed, clung, shrieking, to her son's body.
The doctor entered the house, leaving Clotilde outside. At last, they
again took their way to La Souleiade in silence. Since Pascal had
resumed his visits he seemed to make them only through professional
duty; he no longer became enthusiastic about the miracles wrought by
his treatment. But as far as Valentin's death was concerned, he was
surprised that it had not occurred before; he was convinced that he
had prolonged the patient's life for at least a year. In spite of the
extraordinary results which he had obtained at first, he knew well
that death was the inevitable end. That he had held it in check for
months ought then to have consoled him and soothed his remorse, still
unassuaged, for having involuntarily caused the death of Lafouasse, a
few weeks sooner than it would otherwise have occurred. But this did
not seem to be the case, and his brow was knitted in a frown as they
returned to their beloved solitude. But there a new emotion awaited
him; sitting under the plane trees, whither Martine had sent him, he
saw Sarteur, the hatter, the inmate of the Tulettes whom he had been
so long treating by his hypodermic injections, and the experiment so
zealously continued seemed to have succeeded. The injections of nerve
substance had evidently given strength to his will, since the madman
was here, having left the asylum that morning, declaring that he no
longer had any attacks, that he was entirely cured of the homicidal
mania that impelled him to throw himself upon any passer-by to
strangle him. The doctor looked at him as he spoke. He was a small
dark man, with a retreating forehead and aquiline features, with one
cheek perceptibly larger than the other. He was perfectly quiet and
rational, and filled with so lively a gratitude that he kissed his
saviour's hands. The doctor could not help being greatly affected by
all this, and he dismissed the man kindly, advising him to return to
his life of labor, which was the best hygiene, physical and moral.
Then he recovered his calmness and sat down to table, talking gaily of
other matters.

Clotilde looked at him with astonishment and even with a little
indignation.

"What is the matter, master?" she said. "You are no longer satisfied
with yourself."

"Oh, with myself I am never satisfied!" he answered jestingly. "And
with medicine, you know--it is according to the day."

It was on this night that they had their first quarrel. She was angry
with him because he no longer had any pride in his profession. She
returned to her complaint of the afternoon, reproaching him for not
taking more credit to himself for the cure of Sarteur, and even for
the prolongation of Valentin's life. It was she who now had a passion
for his fame. She reminded him of his cures; had he not cured himself?
Could he deny the efficacy of his treatment? A thrill ran through him
as he recalled the great dream which he had once cherished--to combat
debility, the sole cause of disease; to cure suffering humanity; to
make a higher, and healthy humanity; to hasten the coming of
happiness, the future kingdom of perfection and felicity, by
intervening and giving health to all! And he possessed the liquor of
life, the universal panacea which opened up this immense hope!

Pascal was silent for a moment. Then he murmured:

"It is true. I cured myself, I have cured others, and I still think
that my injections are efficacious in many cases. I do not deny
medicine. Remorse for a deplorable accident, like that of Lafouasse,
does not render me unjust. Besides, work has been my passion, it is in
work that I have up to this time spent my energies; it was in wishing
to prove to myself the possibility of making decrepit humanity one day
strong and intelligent that I came near dying lately. Yes, a dream, a
beautiful dream!"

"No, no! a reality, the reality of your genius, master."

Then, lowering his voice almost to a whisper, he breathed this
confession:

"Listen, I am going to say to you what I would say to no one else in
the world, what I would not say to myself aloud. To correct nature, to
interfere, in order to modify it and thwart it in its purpose, is this
a laudable task? To cure the individual, to retard his death, for his
personal pleasure, to prolong his existence, doubtless to the injury
of the species, is not this to defeat the aims of nature? And have we
the right to desire a stronger, a healthier humanity, modeled after
our idea of health and strength? What have we to do in the matter? Why
should we interfere in this work of life, neither the means nor the
end of which are known to us? Perhaps everything is as it ought to be.
Perhaps we should risk killing love, genius, life itself. Remember, I
make the confession to you alone; but doubt has taken possession of
me, I tremble at the thought of my twentieth century alchemy. I have
come to believe that it is greater and wiser to allow evolution to
take its course."

He paused; then he added so softly that she could scarcely hear him:

"Do you know that instead of nerve-substance I often use only water
with my patients. You no longer hear me grinding for days at a time. I
told you that I had some of the liquor in reserve. Water soothes them,
this is no doubt simply a mechanical effect. Ah! to soothe, to prevent
suffering--that indeed I still desire! It is perhaps my greatest
weakness, but I cannot bear to see any one suffer. Suffering puts me
beside myself, it seems a monstrous and useless cruelty of nature. I
practise now only to prevent suffering."

"Then, master," she asked, in the same indistinct murmur, "if you no
longer desire to cure, do you still think everything must be told? For
the frightful necessity of displaying the wounds of humanity had no
other excuse than the hope of curing them."

"Yes, yes, it is necessary to know, in every case, and to conceal
nothing; to tell everything regarding things and individuals.
Happiness is no longer possible in ignorance; certainty alone makes
life tranquil. When people know more they will doubtless accept
everything. Do you not comprehend that to desire to cure everything,
to regenerate everything is a false ambition inspired by our egotism,
a revolt against life, which we declare to be bad, because we judge it
from the point of view of self-interest? I know that I am more
tranquil, that my intellect has broadened and deepened ever since I
have held evolution in respect. It is my love of life which triumphs,
even to the extent of not questioning its purpose, to the extent of
confiding absolutely in it, of losing myself in it, without wishing to
remake it according to my own conception of good and evil. Life alone
is sovereign, life alone knows its aim and its end. I can only try to
know it in order to live it as it should be lived. And this I have
understood only since I have possessed your love. Before I possessed
it I sought the truth elsewhere, I struggled with the fixed idea of
saving the world. You have come, and life is full; the world is saved
every hour by love, by the immense and incessant labor of all that
live and love throughout space. Impeccable life, omnipotent life,
immortal life!"

They continued to talk together in low tones for some time longer,
planning an idyllic life, a calm and healthful existence in the
country. It was in this simple prescription of an invigorating
environment that the experiments of the physician ended. He exclaimed
against cities. People could be well and happy only in the country, in
the sunshine, on the condition of renouncing money, ambition, even the
proud excesses of intellectual labor. They should do nothing but live
and love, cultivate the soil, and bring up their children.

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